We’re excited to introduce you to the always interesting and insightful Jillian Pham. We hope you’ll enjoy our conversation with Jillian below.

Hi Jillian, thanks for joining us today. Can you open up about a risk you’ve taken – what it was like taking that risk, why you took the risk and how it turned out?

My story starts when I was just a child—a wildly imaginative, rebellious little soul! I was full of enthusiasm and curiosity, always dreaming up new worlds in my mind. I remember playing with my Barbies and Polly Pockets, getting lost in the colors, the visuals, and the stories I infused into those characters. I’d imagine their homes, every little detail of their rooms, and I’d drift off to sleep envisioning my own perfect sanctuary. Even back then, I think I was entering a space of pure creative wonder—a place where I felt safe, understood, and free to explore the depths of my imagination. And in many ways, that little girl is still here today.

Actually, I think she’s only gotten wilder and more creative in her imaginings. Now, though, I’m layered with life experiences – wisdom, pain, and the beauty of lessons gathered along the way. I believe adversity and struggle give us that extra “spice,” that flair necessary for character – and humor! That foundation has always made my creative vision even richer, like a canvas that’s been painted over multiple times, each layer adding depth and a bit of dark humor—which I absolutely enjoy and embrace. Life, to me, is beautiful in all its messy complexity.

So – fast forward to the winter of 2019, when I found myself on what I’d call a true Hero’s Journey, immersed in the wild and abstract world of esoteric spirituality, cosmic mysteries, and inner wisdom. I’d always been drawn to expansive ideas—alchemy, the stars, aliens, ancient knowledge. These concepts sparked something alive in me, a sense of wonder that was hard to contain. But life wasn’t easy. I was a new mother, navigating a toxic relationship, and dealing with a difficult living situation. I felt trapped, and I knew I had to face my pain and rebuild from within because my frustration with my circumstances was only growing. Doing nothing was no longer an option. My creativity was obstructed, suppressed by negativity, and it was showing.

To get through this period, I turned to YouTube, watching videos featuring thinkers like Alan Watts, Sadhguru, and Bashar, and studying Spirit Science and esoteric teachings. I started looking inward. I took that first step and saw how even small actions could create ripples, how making hard but right decisions brought change. I realized progress was possible if I kept going. So I did. Slowly, I began cultivating self-love, recognizing my emotions, and confronting my shadows. I made hard choices, and every time I did, I felt my connection to a higher power deepen. My trust in myself grew. I began finding my voice, gaining confidence, and seeing the good I was nurturing within start to reflect outwardly.

This awakening filled me with purpose, a calling to express my truth and authenticity in a way I’d never dared before. So, I didn’t stop. I finally found myself at a place where I was ready to leave the toxic relationship and the unstable home environment, and I left. I was welcomed by a newfound peace, silence, and contemplation—a wonderful balm for my soul. My creativity returned, my expressions blossomed, and my voice was no longer stifled. I was finally expressing myself authentically and openly, and it felt freeing and liberating.

Now that I was on my own, I slowly became more of myself—unapologetically expressing my viewpoints, visions, interests, and inner knowing. But up to that point, it had always been private, sacred—something just for me. I started to ask myself if I could really bring my secret dream into the light. Could I share this part of myself with the world? Am I even intuitive, or am I just as bat-sht crazy as my religion-obsessed mother?* Was I simply repeating a cycle of family-lineage psychosis? Or was this experience real?

My mind flooded with doubts: Was I knowledgeable enough to guide others? What if I couldn’t express my thoughts clearly? Would people judge me? Would they dismiss my experiences as a “psychotic episode”? And most importantly—would my ADHD get in the way????

But I remembered what I’d learned through my many awakenings: that life is an ongoing expansion of perception, a realization that we are all part of creation as creators ourselves. Life is an invitation to create, express, and explore in ways that inspire others and help them recognize that they, too, carry this creative source within. So, I went for it—I posted a video on TikTok, half-jokingly using Miss Cleo’s famous line, “Call me now for your free tarot reading!” To my surprise, people actually called! It gave me a little boost of “maybe-fake” confidence, making me believe, even for a moment, that I could be an intuitive tarot reader like the ones I admired. I started to think, Maybe I could build a life and business out of this!

But as it turned out, that video was a fluke. After the initial attention faded, there were no more calls, no emails, barely any likes, admiration, or validation. I was back to square one—but still with a hint of hope that maybe, just maybe, this path was worth pursuing.

Despite all these doubts, the pull to share my journey still grows stronger. I feel like my purpose is to bring this experience to others, to let my story be seen—regardless of outward opinions. I told myself, “Hey, this will be great for my resilience!” So, here I am taking the leap of faith and stepping forward – vulnerabilities and all, and sharing my journey openly on TikTok, Instagram, and, as of just yesterday, YouTube.

And yet here I am, unfazed, in a bit of a rest period but still steady on my path. I’m writing my story for an interview with CanvasRebel right now, so maybe it wasn’t all for nothing.

Ultimately, my vision is to channel my unique blend of comedic, calm, and occasionally chaotic energy to help others understand and transmute their own energies through the cyclical framework of Joseph Campbell’s The Hero’s Journey. By sharing insights in layered ways—through accessible comic bits on Instagram and TikTok, and more in-depth explorations on YouTube. I love working with archetypes from the Rider-Waite Tarot and The Wild Unknown decks by Kim Krans, to illuminate each unique transformational path.

I hope to reach individuals at various perceptual levels. Each message has the potential to resonate with the energies and timelines of those aligned with mine.

Jillian, love having you share your insights with us. Before we ask you more questions, maybe you can take a moment to introduce yourself to our readers who might have missed our earlier conversations?

I’m Jillian, the creator of The Chaotic Tarot – Doorway to Hekátē, a transformative tarot experience where clients are invited to step beyond ordinary readings. Here, you journey through a cosmic portal, encounter the mysteries of the unknown, and are guided into the underworld for a symbolic death and rebirth. Sounds like fun, doesn’t it?

My work centers on guiding clients as they unlock their inner magic, build self-love, and navigate life’s inevitable chaos. By blending energy work, intention-setting, and divination, I help people dive deep into their consciousness, emerging with clarity, wisdom, and a renewed sense of empowerment. My approach is rooted in Joseph Campbell’s The Hero’s Journey, which I use as a cyclical, structured framework to help people transmute and process life experiences as they evolve.

In terms of services, I offer transformative readings and intuitive guidance sessions where we connect to the archetypal energies of the Tarot, primarily using the Rider-Waite and Kim Krans’ Wild Unknown decks. What sets my work apart is my focus on the duality of light and shadow, encouraging clients to explore all aspects of themselves to gain true clarity and transformation.

At the heart of The Chaotic Tarot is the energy of Hekátē, my guide, the ancient Goddess of the crossroads and a powerful force in magic and mythology. She is both my inspiration and spiritual partner in helping clients connect with their deepest selves. Together, we help people walk the edge of their own personal journeys, embracing both the light and the darkness with courage, wisdom, and a touch of rebellion.

What I’m most proud of is creating a space where people feel empowered to step into their fullest selves. I want potential clients to know that my work is not just about reading cards; it’s about deep transformation, meeting your higher self, and taking the reins of your own journey. It’s my joy and honor to guide others as they become the stars of their own stories.

In your view, what can society to do to best support artists, creatives and a thriving creative ecosystem?

I believe the best way society can support artists, creatives, and a thriving creative ecosystem is by truly valuing the heart and soul we pour into our work. Creatives love what we do so deeply, and because of that, turning it into a sustainable career in a world driven by convenience and mass production can be a real challenge. Art is about creating a connection, about how it makes you feel—and that kind of impact isn’t easy to monetize…

If society began to see the energy and intention behind handcrafted art, we might start shifting away from the quick-fix appeal of mass-manufactured items toward pieces that are filled with meaning. Support and genuine acknowledgment are fuel for any artist; that’s what makes us feel seen, valued, and inspired to keep creating. Yet, many of us find ourselves wondering, “How do I make a career out of this?”

I think the good news is, if you’re creative, than you’ve already taken the first big step because creativity means there’s always another way – another path waiting to be discovered.

If society can create more platforms for artists, invest or even just promote creative expression and the value of intention-driven work, we’ll open up so many new opportunities for artists to make a living doing what they love.

In the end, a little bit of support and acknowledgment can go a long way in helping creatives bring more beauty, meaning, and magic into the world.

And who the heck wouldn’t want more of that?

For you, what’s the most rewarding aspect of being a creative?

Being authentic. I love the expression, the freedom, the chaos, the messiness! It’s all so fun to me.

There’s a unique magic in creating something that reflects who you genuinely are, without holding back or conforming to expectations. Being a creative allows me to channel my truest self—quirks, passions, and all—into my work, which connects me to others on a deeper level – I hope.

I feel like when you create from a place of authenticity, it resonates differently; it feels alive, genuine, and full of intention. Knowing that my work can inspire or touch someone simply because I dared to be myself is an incredible magical feeling. It’s that authenticity that keeps me coming back to create, again and again. Plus, I love watching my own videos back and catching multi-layered messages that even guide me along the way. It’s a win-win.

Contact Info:

• Website: https://doorwaytohekate.my.canva.site/about
• Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/doorwaytohekate333/
• Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@DoorwaytoHekate333

Image Credits

They are just images from my recordings. I am using Kim Krans Tarot Decks in a few of the images and Joseph Campbells The Hero with A Thousand Faces is being displayed in one photo.