Alright – so today we’ve got the honor of introducing you to Natalie Torres. We think you’ll enjoy our conversation, we’ve shared it below.
Natalie, looking forward to hearing all of your stories today. Learning the craft is often a unique journey from every creative – we’d love to hear about your journey and if knowing what you know now, you would have done anything differently to speed up the learning process.
I worked in fashion as a model since I was 18, in New York City. During that time, I was so disconnected from my body and I lived in a hustle mindset. I had frustrating relationships and traumatic experiences with men. I spent most of my 20’s blaming men and life. I was in one 6 year codependent relationship that drained me to the point that I had chronic pain and fatigue, by the age of 25. I started studying different spiritual paths and I eventually realized that I was both the solution to all of my frustrating experiences with men. My heart couldn’t take it anymore and I devoted my life to finding out how to understanding men and how to be in approval of my feminine energy. One of the things I became most passionate about along my journey was seeing the connection between the father wound and romantic relationships. When a woman has an unhealed father wound, she will prove and earn her worth through over-working and over-functioning. She will try to earn love, use her sex to get love and she will not be in approval of her precious, soft feminine energy. What I realized is that as women, our heart armor attracts and gives us more reasons to wear heart armor. Until we take full ownership of all of the results we’ve gotten with men, we’ll stay on the hamster wheel repeating the same ol’ story.
Great, appreciate you sharing that with us. Before we ask you to share more of your insights, can you take a moment to introduce yourself and how you got to where you are today to our readers.
In 2013, I started learning energy work on the side of modeling. Then I started diving into relationship healing, beloved identity and masculine and feminine restoration. Now I call myself a teacher of feminine restoration and devotional union.
I help women repair their relationship and trust in God and men. I help women be in approval of everything that makes them woman. I help women open into their radiance and live as cherished beloveds of the masculine. A lot of women live very disconnected from their feminine hearts and their wombs which are the energetic centers for feminine frequency. When a women opens and descends into her heart and womb, she feels herself deeply and a new era of love is awakened.
I’m most proud of how energetic my work is. I am an energy worker and devotee to God, at heart. When women step into my space, they feel like they got a spiritual and emotional bath. I’m also most proud of how practical my work is. I’ve watched marriages and families change for the better, when a woman goes through one of my programs.
Let’s talk about resilience next – do you have a story you can share with us?
Most of my life I’ve spent repelling the love I craved.
I wore heart armor the way most women wear their favorite necklace, daily.
Trauma, but lets make it cute was my style.
So I literally had diarrhea for the first few months of dating Brandon. Why?
It wasn’t the endless takeout.
It was because before his presence in my heart and my apartment, I had never received consistent, stable, pure, honest love from a man.
I would leave the room to go to the bathroom, all the time thinking. “THIS IS SO GOOD. HE’S EVERYTHING. Wait when does the toxic part start?!?!?!
Six months in, and I’m still waiting. Lol jk.
But for real…
Before I met Brandon, I honestly thought I’d end up with a man who is not spiritually evolved.
I didn’t think I could actually have it all.
Before meeting Brandon…
I went on a date on a hot texas night with a ‘muggle,’ a really sweet guy and I had nothing to talk about. Awkward.
Then I chatted with a few more muggle guys here and there, and whenever I shared about my passions and my job it became clear they might as well thought I lived in Disneyland.
More importantly, these guys had no interest in God and the mystery. I quickly realized I wouldn’t last a minute in that kind of relationship.
What I needed was..
A man who can take me deeper and farther into living authentically in intimacy than I can on my own.
I was sitting on my porch drinking tea when I realized it would hurt my actual soul to be with with someone who didn’t understand such a big part of me.
And worse…
Dating a ‘muggle’ man meant being with a man who doesn’t understand my passions, the calling placed on my heart and can’t even really see me. Ouch.
So…
What I realized is that when we actually receive what we need and dream about, it’s not cozy and comfortable.
We get activated and have to meet all the parts of ourselves (including our digestive systems) that resist what’s medicine for our souls.
Brandon was my medicine. Here at last was a noble man, a good man, one who didn’t settle for my half- baked perfect answers and instead dug for my raw, heart own truth.
Thankfully…
I had a toolkit and support system to anchor and adjust me for this voyage into actual sacred union without a toxic ending.
Through descending into my beloved identity and feminine root, I got comfortable being uncomfortable. I could witness and hold discomfort without acting from it and sabotaging good things.
We all deserve good things and the ability to hold them..
If my story rings a bell in the tower of your heart, please know it you hold the keys to the relationship you are praying for.
We often hear about learning lessons – but just as important is unlearning lessons. Have you ever had to unlearn a lesson?
For women, our feminine energy sets the tone of every relationship we have. Which sounds daunting at first but it’s actually really empowering to know that we can create the relationships we desire.
Contact Info:
- Website: https://natalie-2396.mykajabi.com/links
- Instagram: https://instagram.com/her.feminine.roots
Image Credits
Camille Adriane photography