We were lucky to catch up with Jezebel LaDoll recently and have shared our conversation below.

Alright, Jezebel thanks for taking the time to share your stories and insights with us today. Are you happier as a creative? Do you sometimes think about what it would be like to just have a regular job? Can you talk to us about how you think through these emotions?

I am absolutely happy as a creative. I enjoy making contend. I’ve always had a fun and artsy side. I was scared to start making content, due to seeing content creators getting made fun of, or people simply just being mean. I got over my fear and now wish that I would have started sooner. I enjoy making people smile, laugh, and made to feel understood. I still work a traditional job in retail 3 days a week, in order to fight my agoraphobia. I have to make that effort, no matter how uncomfortable it is.

Jezebel , love having you share your insights with us. Before we ask you more questions, maybe you can take a moment to introduce yourself to our readers who might have missed our earlier conversations?

Ever since I was a young girl, I enjoyed raiding my mom’s beauty supply cabinet. I’d read the front and the back of the packaging, even the ingredients, though at that time, I had no clue what these ingredients were or what they did. At about 9 or 10, I’d read any skin care article in any magazine that I could get my hands on.
Once the internet came to be, I began googling products I’d find and their ingredients, in order to figure out what exactly they do.
Since, I always found skin care and products fascinating, in 2017, I decided to become an Esthetician in order to broaden expand my knowledge and help others.
Since live in such a fast paced society always running against the clock, I have decided to offer online skin care services for those who don’t necessarily have the time or energy to get a full face to face service. These services are for anyone with questions or concerns about their skin, and/or want recommendations on how to improve the appearance and health of their skin, and/or would like recommendations of products, services, and or supplements that would help with the issue at hand.

Can you tell us about a time you’ve had to pivot?

Once, I began Esthetician school, I quickly realized that my mental health has gotten progressively worse, especially my anxiety and memory issues. Taking in new information and retaining it is difficult. Luckily, due to so much knowledge about skincare being ingrained in my brain, that allowed me to finish the program. I am not able to drive and even leaving my house is a feat in itself.
Therefore, I decided to pivot and work strictly online, instead of the traditional route that Estheticians usually take. My online work not only consists of one on one skin care sessions, but content creation as well. I share my stories and am trying to build a community within the recovery and mental health realm. I want to break the stigma that is often at times associated with people in those realms. Many people struggle with anxiety and that often makes it difficult to get out make friends. I want to build an online community where people feel safe and cared for, in order for people to not feel alone.

Let’s talk about resilience next – do you have a story you can share with us?

There was a point in time where I felt so broken and scared. Broken, due to a nasty divorce and also due to trauma that I endured after the divorce. Scared, due to fear of where my life is going due to how bad my mental health has gotten. In 2015, I decided to use heroin in order to cope. That went on for a little less than a year and a half. Then, I met a guy online. The sweetest man with the patience of a saint. I quickly realized, that men like that a hard to find and that I needed to get my act together in order to due my part in the relationship and not lose a good thing. I went cold-turkey and stopped using heroin, Several, months later moved to Los Angeles and married my best friend. A few months later, is when I began the Esthetician program and also began going to therapy in order to unpack and work through my trauma, as well as take a good look at myself and my toxic traits and better myself. It was then when I was diagnosed with CPTSD & DID. I underwent EMDR treatment. I now don’t feel as broken and the fear of living with mental health issues and fear of the future are not as bad. Of course, there’s still a little bit of fear, because of the reality of the situation. Though now, I make a concerted effort to live in the now and make best of everyday instead of living in fear about the future. When I look back is when I realize how far I’ve come, it’s when I realize the strength and resilience it took to turn my like around and make that 180.

Contact Info:

• Instagram: www.instagram.com/jezebel.ladoll
• Other: www.tiktok.com/@jezebel.ladoll