Alright – so today we’ve got the honor of introducing you to Deadxlonely. We think you’ll enjoy our conversation, we’ve shared it below.
DeadxLonely , thanks for taking the time to share your stories with us today We’d love to hear about when you first realized that you wanted to pursue a creative path professionally.
The first time I knew I had to pursue music was when I was a kid, there wasn’t one place I didn’t go where I didn’t have my earbuds plugged into my little Sandisk MP3 player. Music has always been an important part of my life because it allowed me to close my eyes and escape the world around me that I felt was always eating me alive. I always would try to conceal myself off and isolate myself with the music whenever I was going through it. And the connection to certain artists or songs remain to this day and is a vital part of my creative process because it’s the only way that I know how to cope with my emotions. I’m constantly being inspired by my idles and elders, and always learning knew things about my music, self and future all through the catharsis that is this industry.
DeadxLonely , love having you share your insights with us. Before we ask you more questions, maybe you can take a moment to introduce yourself to our readers who might have missed our earlier conversations?
I’m 21 years old, born and raised in Utah. I grew up in a broken household with my mom and six siblings where we had to endure a lot of mental (and some physical) abuse for years. The whole reason I got into music was to escape that world that was killing me and causing me pain in the first place. Although, I still find myself stuck in that place, I do notice that I have made significant progress towards getting to where I want to be so that the pain and suffering can stop.
I used to write just to let out all the anger and frustration I felt but I’ll be honest most of it was non-rhythmic garbage. The moment I saw how many other people needed help and also needed guidance, I realized it was my mission to create art that brings people like me together, so that we can feel safe, happy, and have a sense of community, as I never did growing up.
I know I’m still young but I have lived four lifetimes in these 21 years and it’s been draining, So much so that the stress has created ulcers in my intestines and stomach. Fun right?
Anyways, the music isn’t something I want to pursue only for money or fame. Screw that. Yes the money/fame is going to get me out this poverty and change many lives beyond mine, but, it’s not why I do it. As stated before, but, to paraphrase:
I know what it’s like to hurt. I’ve seen enough bad to know good and enough good to know bad. I’ve struggled each day and continue to fight a battle that no one will ever see, but I do it for you. The reader or article writer seeing this. The listener who plays my songs (even though I don’t think they are that great yet). I’m just tired of seeing hurt and pain in the world when I’ve seen it thrive and succeed before. It kills me and, well, at this point it is literally killing me so I just want to do what I can do fix that. If starting in the music industry is the way to go then f**k it, that’s where I’ll start. Because at the end of the day it’s where it started for me.
What’s the most rewarding aspect of being a creative in your experience?
The most rewarding aspect is seeing all the people my music is reaching and helping. It’s not every job where you get to expose your faults and problems in a song and dance and have people love you for it. It’s truly humbling and amazing to see how many other people not only relate to me, but who I can relate to as well. Every day I get to continue down this path, is a day I am grateful for it in the first place. I wouldn’t have a platform if it wasn’t for the audience, so it’s all for them.
Having people reach out and tell me my music helps them is extremely rewarding. All I want on a large scale.
Any resources you can share with us that might be helpful to other creatives?
Don’t focus on the end goal too much. Just do you; take your time, take a breath and relax. Everything is gonna be okay, you just need patience. Love life as it comes and let everything flow as naturally as it wants. Don’t force anything because the harder you look, the harder it is to see.
Contact Info:
- Website: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5JicVD0QwWq4N5ZE0n3ugH?si=1EyTKmQQQByUnY-VR9hGeA
- Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/already_deadxlonely/profilecard/?igsh=d2s1MXh0b21oOXY1
- Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DeadxLonely?mibextid=LQQJ4d
- Twitter: @deadxxlonely
- Youtube: https://youtube.com/channel/UCbTfUV2obBFXLykEBsuhVSA?si=nVkgw1-lPAWrzE2f
- Soundcloud: https://on.soundcloud.com/evWhb8wMSY21F11b7
