We were lucky to catch up with Colleen Naus recently and have shared our conversation below.
Colleen , appreciate you joining us today. Let’s start with the story of your mission. What should we know?
The story behind my mission… to be part of the front line of deep truth, gut-wrenching human emotion, unlimited possibilities, unconditional Love, a bridge to the higher realms, and to support YOU on your twisty-turny journey to self-awareness and your highest timeline.
I can’t change most things, or take away life’s pains, but the one thing I can guarantee is that I’ll be next to you in the process. I do this through sharing my automatic writings and my intuitive insights via tools of Energy Astrology, Numerology and Decks. We will walk in process, side-by-side.
Regardless of the depths of spiritual (self) work I do, issues and adversities still show up. Do I shake them off quicker? Yes. Do I berate myself over them? Not any more. Do I forgive? Yep ~ even if I’m not forgiven. Do I still react? Absolutely. Can I admit when I’ve blown it? Sure. Do I express empathy and compassion? I hope so… to the best of my ability.
It’s true what Michael Singer says, we all have issues. And they are on the inside, not the outside. Our self-growth begins with the awareness of these inner icks. Even though I’ve been in what feels like a forever unwinding my own internal ‘whatever’s’, I have accepted that I will never get them done. Sometimes as we are re-membering who we are, it is easy to forget who we are.
I’m with you…. not above you, not below you.
The reality is I grew up in a family environment that was challenging, and as every family can be perceived; perfectly imperfect.
I’ve experienced and/or been witness to alcoholism, addiction, verbal, emotional, and domestic abuse, teenage pregnancy, adoption, adultery, family fights, suicide, homicide, betrayal, a questionable birth, and a mysterious disappearance. My life, from an early age, was filled with days, months, and years of therapy and self-help. It carved a path of continued self-referral and expansion. This amazing design led me to the being I am today; driven, passionate, honest, loyal, and unwilling to settle…. Or better said, expecting the best! And so it was…
BUT…
I’ll admit, I’ve felt ‘alone’ most my life. Not literally but figuratively. But there’s a big difference between being alone and lonely.
Alone, I walk the path that requires using whatever tools I have to blaze, cut, or stomp down the trail ahead of me. I do not say this with pride or ego-mind. It’s purely from, finally, the place where I realize I am filled with Love and have traversed my life experiences with all its adversities so I can be a teacher, mentor, guide, healer, container, bridge, and uplifter for others.
So… the story behind my mission is to walk this journey together; to connect, support, and guide you through ongoing conversations that return you to your own infinite self. It’s my honor to assist you in getting on solid ground through loving yourself, so when life delivers, you will quickly regain your footing.
You just like me, me just like you, we are all kindred spirits. 
Colleen , before we move on to more of these sorts of questions, can you take some time to bring our readers up to speed on you and what you do?
Well like many of you I’ve always instinctively known there was a force greater than me. You know, the force that keeps our feet stuck to the planet, draws the tide in and out, produces the most divine trees and colors of nature that man couldn’t possibly duplicate. Not to mention the radiant ginormous orange orb that rises and sets everyday despite what’s going on in the world. That’s a force! A beautiful mysterious force. Look around… it’s mesmerizing!
Embracing all that I feel and sense has not been a quick and simple acceptance. As a young child I was surrounded by invisible friends and painstakingly visited by repeating night-terrors. Looking back I now realize I’ve always been an open channel.
My sister reminded me of a specific occasion where she finally asked a question about one of my invisible friends. While living in NY as young kids, I was in the first or second grade, we would regularly drive past an old burned down house on the way to pick up my Dad from the ferry station. As we would cruise by this house I’d start a conversation with something, someone. Finally my sister asked me, ‘Colleen, who are you talking to?”. I answered, ‘Oh, it’s so-and-so.’ I shared a little boy’s name. I answered nonchalantly as if it was a friend riding in the car with us that everyone could see… like it was obvious, and I had no qualms that this might seem strange to everyone else. It was clear I was communicating with an entity beyond the tangible 3D world. My sister finally admitted that I freaked her out a bit when we were kids. Haha… I can’t say I blame her.
Over years of feeling ‘not like the others’, I began exploring spirituality, self-help books, astrology, numerous sessions with intuitives, psychics, healers and therapists. Eventually I agreed to listen and own that the common findings were pointing to my gifts of the four clairs and automatic writing.
The ‘Clairs’ of intuition:
Clairaudience (hearing, voices), Clairvoyance (seeing images), Clairsentience (recognize feelings), Claircognizance (knowing).
Automatic Writing:
Also known as psychography, is the practice of tapping into a deep source of wisdom within you outside of conscious awareness – also known as the Soul. This practice is usually done in a trance-like or altered state of consciousness. I like to believe it is the doorway to my higher self.
Here’s where I had to build my boundaries and the understanding of it all. It was too often a lonely path… being the way-shower, navigating my way through un-chartered and over-grown trails to finally emerge into a beautiful field full of beauty and color with no one to revel in the glory.
Until now….
I have drawn to me all the amazing souls that have stumbled into the field with me from the other side, a little to the right of me, and a ways over to the left. New trails spilling soulful beings out into the field everywhere. Here’s where I took a huge breath and felt proud.
What am I proud of? That I have trekked this self-referral journey of expansion, u-turns, downhills, boulders to climb over, rivers to cross, the cuts, scrapes, and bruises, and an occasional resting place in the arm of a tree.. all with the inner knowing that ‘I could’. That something greater than me was my guide… asking a little more of me. So I kept going.
I’m proud of all the chaos and pain that has created ME. WHY? … because now I can be your support.
I have the inner knowing that you too can navigate through and shed whatever’s got its grip on you. Yes it feels crappy at times… I will sit with you when times are stinky. But I am proud to tell you that I have a knowing of what it will take next to stand beside you and be of Loving service. I whole-heartedly know the path stemming from my community of invisible friends to the jolts of life’s adversities have delivered me to THIS… it is who I AM and what I AM to do.
My gifts are channeled through exploring the energies of your Birthchart, running the numerology that vibrates to your soul, and shuffling the decks so it all comes alive in a way that speaks to you… it’s all about YOU. These tools combined with an intimate conversation is where my ‘clairs’ of intuition and messages flow in. We work together to let it rise to the surface… I am a guide to YOUR inner truth and knowing. Are you ready to anchor yourself into your wholeness and innate self? To gain deep comprehension and Love for yourself you are unshakable through life’s adversities? To utilize your given energies and hear your soul’s whispers that guide you to your next right decision … are you listening?
My automatic writings are my vulnerable offerings for you to sit with me, and know I am also embodied. You just like me, me just like you, life can hurt. I will be open to you. Those who have nothing to hide, hide nothing.
A little more about myself?
My belief is alignment of all four bodies; Spiritual, Physical, Mental, and Emotional. I can only offer what I have walked through.
I fully embrace I am an ancient soul and have returned here many lifetimes. My embodiment of human emotions has been my life process as the family I chose to be connected to in this lifetime is my evidence.
I’m a co-founder of a quantum meditation group that is researched by PHD staff at UCSD, and I practice advanced level quantum meditation daily. As a core member of this research team I administer EEG brain mapping during live meditations as part of the ongoing research. I’ve been fascinated by the merging of science and mystic all my life so it’s beautiful to bring forth to the world the synergistic combination.
Behind my quest to dive deep into spiritual fitness lies a backbone of physical fitness.
I have years of experience studying and analyzing body movement as a professional dance instructor, performer and choreographer. I am a certified personal trainer, hold an Advanced Level Pilates certification, and am the owner of two private personal training and Pilates facilities.
So we got it covered! It you are still reading along, I’m thrilled you have found your way here! It means you followed the nudges of the Divine . There are no coincidences, only cooperative-incitings.
I invite you in, let’s have a conversation. With an open heart, together we will unravel and reveal your strengths, challenges, soul callings, and much more. It’s all about YOU! 
We’d love to hear a story of resilience from your journey.
So many feelings were stirred up that stretched beyond resilience. As with any dysfunctional home I developed coping mechanisms. My top choices were perfectionism and anger. These were my go to behaviors!
My family beared the brunt of my highly attuned organization that kept them on their toes if they touched anything in my room. If I got pushed to my limits my fire came blazing out through a lash of my tongue with piercing, hurtful, and sarcastic words. I’ve since learned to bite my tongue til it bleeds and abolish sarcasm as a form of communication.
And yet it was these two forms of coping that kept leading me to uncover and look beneath the web of these hurtful and superficial responses. Taking deep dives into myself, my truth, and what my heart was calling. At the age of 15 years old the penny dropped. A friend gave me a book to read and mentioned that I had grown-up in an alcoholic home. Whoa!!! This was the first light shining upon me where I realized I wasn’t crazy!!! I had been up against external energies, age-old stories and patterns. These probably go back lineages.
I dug in. From every self-help book, therapy session, and hours alone sifting and sorting through the muck. I see this was my chosen path to excel me to my highest self and potentiality. An innate part of me knew it was up to me to unwind the human component of emotion. The digging sent me down many rabbit holes in all directions but each always landed in the same place; unworthiness.
Behind anger is always a deeper emotion; fear. What is your fear? Mine was the ‘thought’ – which can be the part of the mind that will sell you down the river every time – I digress… Mine was the ‘thought’ that I was unloveable/unworthy. In most dysfunctional homes it can be an uphill climb to be seen or heard. So if I got angry enough or loud enough or perfect enough, I’d be seen and heard. Wrong. All of these angles stem from a place outside ourselves. My soul knew this. I kept going…
Always having a deep sense of energies and how people were showing up in a room I grappled with how this felt in my body and what it meant. It was a process of untangling what was mine and what wasn’t, it was a knowing of one’s truth; I could always see through the BS. I quickly learned to keep my mouth shut about most of these knowings as it didn’t always go over well. It has taken years of working with high spiritual teachers to discern when to share and when to gently move on. I was learning to see, hear, and listen to my Soul… my gifts of the Clairs.
With all these teachings and acceptance of my higher self knowings I began practicing self-referral: Self-referral speaks to having our spirit as our internal reference point for how we live in the world. The opposite of this would be object-referral whereby we are looking outside ourselves for guidance and approval regarding how to live our lives.
Life is short, we are our own captains. So I buckled in and started healing my wounds. They were mine, no one else’s. Removing any blame and judgement were the two big ones. Not only of others but within my self. The biggest healing was the relationship with my Dad as he was my first and biggest qualifier (alcoholic). Around the ripe age of 31 I knew it was time for me to repair and complete the history of that broken relationship.
Side note: My Dad has been sober since 1990. What a blessing!
I spent weeks and hours with a therapist to prep for my meeting with my Dad. For all the details, please read my automatic writing; Coping Mechanisms ~ https://www.colleennaus.com/
It was my spirit and heart that called me forth. I listened to my inner high self. Changing that relationship could only come from me. And didn’t I want the best for myself and any male relationship I would desire to create? This was where the healing needed to begin, with my Dad. It took much courage and trust. I’m not saying it was easy but I knew the only way to create change was to be the change.
My family environment in which I was raised is just one example where I exercised resilience. I may not have been in charge of how it began but I was in charge of how it would unwind. I was the decider in how it could define me and what gems I could find amongst the rubbish. I’m grateful for my higher self and even more so… for my heart’s listening.
Looking back, are there any resources you wish you knew about earlier in your creative journey?
If my memory serves me, I have been journaling since around the age of 6. Can you even write at at that age? haha! Regardless, I have stacks of journals from my life. A few years back I was flipping through them. At one point I paused and set one of the journals down. I internally asked if it was truly me that had written what was on the pages. The Soul’s answer was a loud Yes! and it was time to accept what my spiritual teachers had been telling me all along; I have the gift of Automatic Writing.
We are where we are. As much as I would have loved to embrace this knowing earlier in my creative journey, everything is divine timing. It was also an opportunity to be thankful for the unknowing gift that kept me afloat during my childhood as it offered creative expression of my emotional body. As I continued reading pages from this journal and that journal it boosted my confidence to start the flow of writing again.
It is the place of creativity that opens the heart. When our heart space is open the creations are free to flow. It is a beautiful symbol like the infinity sign. A symbol that can be drawn in constant flow without ever picking your finger up off the page. Here is where I am. If I can be an example for you to trust your innate gifts, conscious or unconscious… I encourage you to open to YOUR resources for your creative journey. We are in a time where creativity is being beckoned.
Contact Info:
- Website: https://www.colleennaus.com/
- Instagram: illuminated.soul.astrology
- Linkedin: https://www.linkedin.com/in/colleen-naus-9a90a1a/
Image Credits
Colleen Naus and Byron Arnold