Alright – so today we’ve got the honor of introducing you to Andreece Turner. We think you’ll enjoy our conversation, we’ve shared it below.

Andreece , thanks for taking the time to share your stories with us today We’d love to hear the backstory behind a risk you’ve taken – whether big or small, walk us through what it was like and how it ultimately turned out.

I have always preferred to have a plan and to stick to it.

I was raised in extreme poverty and inherited generations of abuse and oppression and got married at the age of 23 to the man that I thought I would build life with forever.

I believed that I had made it; I escaped the cycles of abuse that I inherited; yet I found myself in an emotionally abusive marriage that was void of intimacy and hundreds of miles away from my family and homeland and everything that was familiar.

Isolated from my old reality, I began to experience severe mental health challenges along with an increase of hospital visits due to chronic flares and fatigue.

My body was breaking down and my mind was reminding me of the pain that I was experiencing as it happened. Everything in me told me that I needed to break free from this reality but I had a mind that was exhausted and my body had become more ill and I blamed myself for where my situation had taken me.

After all, I did everything right… how did I get here?

Everything that I had worked so hard to achieve and protect was making me ill. The pressure of holding it all together was breaking me from the inside out.

I was in school studying psychology full-time and as I went through my curriculums I couldn’t help but to notice that there was no separation between my reality and what I was reading in textbooks.

I was in an abusive scenario, I was healing from Complex PTSD after being diagnosed at 19, I had a chronic illness with no answers, I was completely alone and unsupported, and I believed that my intuition was fear and that it wasn’t to be trusted.

For the first time in my life I had knowledge to what it was I was experiencing and I had a choice to either accept it and move forward with a commitment to change it or settle for a version of myself that was disempowered and resolved to personal defeat.

I spent 10 years in intensive therapy on and off and had become so comfortable with hospitals that I preferred them to my own bed some days.

I never thought that my illness could be my heart screaming that I was not being poured into in the same way that I gave so freely to the people and things around me.

Unfortunately, it was not one change that would solve this desperation for a new beginning; it was walking away from it all…

My entire family of origin, ending my emotionally abusive marriage, and admitting my hand in my own abuse; I had to walk away from that version of myself.

I made a promise to myself that day: to never settle for anything less than you deserve. Because our needs should never come at the expense of others. No matter how deeply I feel for the things and the people in my life, I must never accept maltreatment.

I began speaking truth and asking harder questions to the people in my life. I began taking my healing seriously and changing what it was I was consuming in my mind my body and my emotions.

I began holding people accountable including myself and very quickly to no surprise, I literally lost everything.

Everything I was in the matter of weeks disintegrated.

My finances, my husband, my home, my family, my stability, my job, my support system, my relationships, and my pets for a temporary time.

I struggled with health issues and an eating disorder and chronic illness as I fought to regain stability and independence.

I continued to remind myself that I was capable of building a life that reflected beauty, peace, and authenticity. And I left everything behind knowing that none of it was serving me and that somehow, some way, I would be okay. I just knew that I couldn’t stay who and where I was any longer.

It’s been 3 years now since my divorce. And when I say that I refer to my reality and a change in title but what I mean reall; is my divorce to myself.

The old version of me that allowed people to take advantage of me over and over. The version of me that believe I was here to play it safe and small.

The version of me that believed that I was here to be a sacrifice for the betterment and nurturing of others feelings, at the expense of my truth and needs.

The depths of me desired to be bigger but could never imagine that I would ever be able to step into that space alone.

I’d spent the majority of my twenties healing through narcissistic abuse and repeating patterns and cycles of harm which made me hide who I really am.

So I made a choice to take a risk on myself and run after my dreams and calling. I learned that being my true self made me vulnerable but that is where our greatest strengths are discovered.

I started a small business, Pure Lunacy, LLC which has been my lifelong dream to pursue a life of meaning and ownership.

I dropped out of college as it was literally making me ill and I began using the skills that I learned for 13 years in undergrad to help heal myself; which would then later give me the ability to do the same with others.

I have fully owned my abilities as a psychic medium, an artist, and a healer/community organizer.

Today, I am still pursuing healing every single day and humbly showing up to spaces digitally and in communities to speak and share on a narrative in which we all know and believe that we are worthy of the most beautiful life.

I speak openly about my experience with mental illness, chronic illness, and abuse and how it impacts our brain and ability to be present in life.

I took a risk on myself by opening up my story to the public in allowing people to see that no matter what we go through, no matter how many times we have to rebuild, it is always worth it.

I took a risk on the callings of my heart even when they didn’t make sense and when they were taboo and caused others to fear me and to speak ill of me because I was no longer familiar or accessible to their harm.

I took a risk on being the best and the most beautiful version of myself knowing that I would have to give up everything.

In my short 30 years of life, I have had the beautiful privilege to come to these understandings and truths:

If everything that you have keeps you the furthest from you; then you have nothing at all.

People are incapable of giving what they do not possess themselves.

And loss/failure is literally a mindset; everything is meant to teach us and aide us on our journey. There are always losses, and they are only an invitation to opportunities of grow and expansion.

I learned quickly that you are the most valuable asset that you will ever get your hands on, and that being an authentic you is the most valuable and freeing thing we will ever experience in this lifetime.

I took a risk on myself and pursuing my dreams and I am seeing them come into a fruition more and more each day.

Because of that, I get to make the lives of the people around me more beautiful by just being who I am and inviting them into that same sacred space.

To be witnessed. To be seen. And to be loved. And the be handled gently.

Shedding and letting go the things that I knew were not in alignment was the riskiest and the greatest things I have ever done in this life.

I am immensely grateful for a life in which I have given myself permission to live and love freely.

Thank you so much for holding space for more stories of beauty from ashes to be shared. 🤎✨

Andreece , love having you share your insights with us. Before we ask you more questions, maybe you can take a moment to introduce yourself to our readers who might have missed our earlier conversations?

“She had a fire in her soul that far too many dared to extinguish but all consistently failed at. This fire was alien to this world and was impossible to put out; and somehow inevitably kindled flames in others. Sometimes the flames were dim and other times they were iridescent and lit up a room but with out a doubt… the flame was always burning and fueled everything inside of her. Everything that was good and lovely. And so that’s who she became; radiance in the dark.”
-Andreece Desiree’ Turner

I am a poet, a writer, and artist, and a psychic medium and scholar of the esoteric arts and human mind.

I’m passionate about living an authentic life and finding what it is that lights us up and how to use that as a compass and tool for personal healing, growth, expansion, and initiation.

I am a speaker of Truth and a holder of stories. Many of my traditions and practices are rooted in intuitive ancestral practices and have pagan/druid roots but I remain undefined in my titling.

I offer energy readings, past life regression readings, channeled psychic messages, varied types of energy work, mental wellness coaching, motivational and public speaking, and alternative ways to approach conflict and opposition.

I do varied types of content creation to facilitate conversation on taboo and hard topics and also focus a good majority of practice and business on earth magic and rituals for pain and healing and spiritual cleansing.

I’m a believer that everything that comes into our reality is meant to service and teach us and we have the choice and privilege to accept it and allow it to help us grow and flourish.

Training and knowledge matter of course, but beyond that what do you think matters most in terms of succeeding in your field?

I think arguably the most important thing that is most helpful for succeeding in your field is to be absolutely and completely yourself.

There are millions and trillions of people who can do the work that you do but do not carry your essence and your flare.

No one can do the work the way that YOU do it.

We live in a world or technology and expectations and training is constantly shifting and creating heightened illusion of competition and hierarchy.

In a world that is so systematic to be unsystematic and be completely yourself gives you the confidence to thrive in your field and and also keeps you open to discovering new things.

When you have the knowledge that you are enough no matter where you are and what role you serve; you’re able to show up to your position and your space and give an energy and a charisma that no one else has for that role.

Many other skills and training and knowledge is tangible and can be taught. Self confidence and authenticity are the rarest and the highest vibrational energy and have the power to absolutely transform an innovate the world as we know it now.

Success is being able to thrive where you are at; not making where you are thrive for you to enjoy it. Circumstances are constantly shifting and are subject to change.

Staying in alignment with self-authenticity acts as a compass and gives you something to go back to as the demands of work and life shift and change.

Learning and unlearning are both critical parts of growth – can you share a story of a time when you had to unlearn a lesson?

What a burden being rooted deeply; to be a branch off of the tree of life.
Hands out, palms up, okay everyone; single file line….

A beauty to bear fruit; to be plucked for your own lust. And when I’m stripped bare with nothing left to give, you’ll be confused by my mistrust…

You’ll walk away disappointed and hungrier than you came,
and claim that I never provided for your nights and for your days.

You’ll allow people to believe that I robbed you of your joy, and that my fruit was never healing it was poison; a cunning ploy.

But what you won’t tell them is that you consume my essence and light; and pretend that you don’t crave me while you lust for my nectar in the dark and in the light.

Because I’m a magnet for healing and pain and your self-destructive tendencies have become who you are. You’ll teach me the lesson of building fences and I’ll teach you the meaning of living through your heart.

I’ll weep and sit a few seasons out to give me time to replenish my fruit
and dream of the beautiful fences I’ve built that keep me away from you.

You’ll call me cold and say that I was never who I claimed to be
and I’ll sit and flower year after year knowing that no matter how you tried to shame me;

I still loved and I still gave.
My fruit didn’t go in vain.
I mean damn… Look at all of the beauty it’s made.

A tree crowned in her own wisdom can be pruned; but never tamed.”

-Andreece Desiree’ Turner

The biggest lesson that I have had to unlearn that has impacted every aspect of my life is learning to be a manager of your energy.

I was raised culturally to be a people pleaser and to constantly give too much which inherently taught me that I was not worthy of receiving and that my only role was to give to other people and that left me empty and robbed most times.

In work settings, in relationships, in school, in everything I did really. I gave and I gave because I was taught to earn love instead of receive it.

This poem is about many instances of being a chronic people pleaser and severely lacking boundaries and how it left me empty and alone over and over.

Learning to be a good Steward of your energy and learning to invest your time and energy as you would money or anything else has been the most valuable lesson I’ve ever learned.

Everything that we create comes from within and if we are constantly depleted then we aren’t able to create much.

It’s a beautiful thing to be a giver in this world but it’s an even more beautiful thing when you can recognize what is only taking from you and how to reestablish and reorganize and rearrange your energy so that you are not depleted.

I had to unlearn allowing anything and anyone access to my time and my energy.

Though that is still a desire at times, the reality is that we are only given so much time on this earth and each minute we invest into things and people that only take or do not honor that
energy and time are only holding space and preventing you from allowing what is honoring of yourself to come into your reality.

Unlearning self abandonment and over giving has literally changed and saved my life.

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