We were lucky to catch up with Alora Beck recently and have shared our conversation below.

Alora, thanks for taking the time to share your stories with us today We’d love to hear about when you first realized that you wanted to pursue a creative path professionally.

It was a beautiful morning, the weather was perfect, the sun shining. I woke up feeling the pain of my past, and decided it was a good idea to go to the park and journal. At the time, I was learning about manifestation, and how to sync your brain and heart to create the vibration of ‘already having’ what you desire. As I sat at the park, writing how I was feeling about the hardships that I had endured, I felt called to start listening to a manifestation meditation. I paused my walk, found a bench that was rather secluded, with a nice view of the parks small pond, and started to ground myself into the moment. Using the headphones I brought with me, I searched for a video on YouTube to guide me and closed my eyes.

During this meditation, I was being prompted to imagine what I truly desired in my life. To my shock, I started to envision myself as a motivational speaker, standing on stage, sharing my story and the wisdom that I have gained through pain. Never once in my life had I considered this idea prior to this moment. I was set on the path of education, with the intention of someday becoming a doctor or physiologist. A public speaker? Stages? My heart was pounding as this vision started to come in with more clarity and my body pulsing with electricity.

As the meditation began to come to a close, I was nearly in disbelief. It seemed to make so much sense, as this dormant life purpose began to surface. My intuition always knew that I would someday be an artist of my soul. However, in my survival focused brain, the path of high accolades seemed to be the most reasonable way to purse the path of service to others.

Nearly five years later, I have yet to step on my first stage. An addiction to marijuana, having my third child, processing repressed sexual abuse, and managing a yoga/fitness studio, sidetracked me from this dream. However, I am now addiction free, and beginning to remember yet again what my souls true calling is. I proudly announce that I am taking small action each day to achieve this dream. The timing is less relevant to me now, as I know and trust I will receive my first speaking engagement in the moment that it was always meant to be.

Awesome – so before we get into the rest of our questions, can you briefly introduce yourself to our readers.

When I do have the chance to step on stage and share my story, my message will be profoundly simple; to remind people of what is real, and that is love.

You know what resonates with most people in this world? I’ll give you a hint, its not love, its quite the opposite of love. Look around in your neighborhood, watch people in grocery stores, or waiting at the bus stop. What do you see? As devastating as it is to be honest about it, what we are witnessing is humans who have been cut off from their life force energy, living in some state of pain and fear.

Most of us, have forgotten the simple and liberating truth of love, and that we are that. Our stories, our pain, have chained us to the past, and we wake up every single day thinking the same thoughts that we thought the day before, repeating the same familiar habits, attracting the same undesirable results.

One of the hardest, most challenging, things I have ever done is speak/feel my depression and anxiety out of my body and mind. You might be scratching your head, wondering what I mean by that, but it quite literally what it sounds like. In order to heal myself from waking up with the same thoughts of dread and gloom, I had to interrupt that pattern of thinking and begin to think, speak, and FEEL a new program. Our brains can be compared to computers, whatever is programmed into them from a young age, is THE hardware. The brain sees no reason to change this hardware, unless the programmer (aka YOU), feels motivates to begin reprogramming a new code.

I desired a new code. And for the past six years now, without missing a single day, each morning I wake up, I encode the program of peace and love. This hasn’t been an easy feat though. In fact, in the beginning of my journey, I needed the support of a plastic flower. My thoughts were so malicious, and so controlling, before I even had a chance on meditating on peace and love, I first had to train my brain, to simple focus on a single object. In the beginning this plastic rose and I could only spend 5-10 seconds together before my mind started to wander back to doom and gloom, worrying about the past or feeling anxious about the future. Weeks turned into months, and soon I started to feel a confidence growing within. I was becoming the master of my thoughts! The hardware inside wasn’t controlling me, I was beginning to influence it!

Months turned into years, and magical things began unfolding. I started to intentionally think a thought/idea that I desired, FEEL as if it had already happened, and these ideas started to actually show up in front of me. Some call it manifesting, others call it woo woo, the bottom line is I was successfully creating! I have some pretty incredible, jaw dropping examples of this (but I’ll save those for when I am on stage and have more time).

Here’s the thing I want people to know, we are always creating! We are creators. However, we have forgotten how to create with love, PURPOSE, and peace, and sadly, creating out of pain and fear. Majority of us aren’t even aware that what we think and how we feel is creating our moment to moment experience. My motive is to inspire others of their power to create. Not only inspire them, but teach them the exact steps to take in order to create with purpose.

I believe in this mission, and I know that as people come to remember their power to create, they will also begin to remember whats real, and that is love. Love is the only real thing in this world. Everything else is just fear.

Its either love or fear baby, which motive do you choose?

We’d love to hear a story of resilience from your journey.

The story of my resilience is in the process of unfolding currently. Just a few short weeks ago, my brain allowed me to access one of my most repressed, painfully excruciating memories. Due to the fact that our brains are designed to protect us, causing us to ‘forget’ trauma, let me line it up for you as to how I was able to uncover this.

I began sharing my journey through sobriety from marijuana on day one of quitting on my social media platforms. My goal was to show up with the greatest amount of transparency as possible for thirty days as I detoxed my system from an addiction that held me hostage for 14 years. Shortly after my 30 days ended, I felt called to begin sharing my story, and the reasons why I fell into addiction. With bravery and some fear, I shared my story of being raped at age 4 by my mothers boyfriend, and how sadly, she wasn’t strong enough to believe me, which meant the abuse continued for two more years. Not checking with my younger parts prior to sharing, I received backlash from my five year old self after posting. My higher, adult self who knew she was safe, devoted the weekend to comforting my child self. Reassuring her that her bravery was to help others, holding her, stroking her hair, and helping calm her down from the fear of others knowing. This may seem like it is a tangent from the original story, but this next cue was a HUGE reason I was able to access this recent sexual abuse memory. That same devoted weekend to being there for my child self, I was given my grandmothers old lamp. She passed away nearly 10 years ago now, but my Father had just decided it was a good time for me to receive this stunning vintage lamp that sat in her home all the years I spent going over there. Turning the lamp on for the first time, I laid underneath it, bringing my littler girl forward and placing her in my lap, giving her all the love that I never received then.

That very same night after turning on the lamp, I had a terrible dream. A dream that had me running from my grandparents, feeling terrified as they pinned me down and began doing inappropriate things to me. Waking up in sweat, I could feel my little girl trying to tell me something. I began to close my eyes, and find her within me. Asking her what she was trying to tell me, she screamed “it doesn’t matter, nobody will believe me, you won’t believe me.”

I continued to work with her, doing my best to calm her down, asking her again what it was she was trying to show me. We spent hours, turned into days, uncovering the memory of being sexually abused by the individuals who I once believed were my safest protectors as a child.

It hasn’t even been a full month since uncovering this trauma that was hiding from me for over 20 years. And yet, somehow, I have found the strength to not only stay well during this time, but spirit has blessed me with the volunteers to start a non-profit and build the most incredible community center that Arizona has yet to see. A dream that I was given during a mediation nearly five years prior. Somehow, I have had to strength to invite these five team members over for the past four Sundays in a row, cook lunch for them, and lay the foundation of our organization. We adopted our bylaw this past Sunday (August 18th), and I was voted in as treasurer for our Board of Directors.

To my amazement, I have managed to stay sober, stay kind in my marriage, despite the fact that my husband was also laid off during this time, take care of my three children, and continue to grief this pain and purge the stagnant energy inside my body. I feel resilient AF, and I am proud to show what is possible when you have done the work to rewire and reprogram your nervous system and mental engine, so that no matter WHAT life throws at us, we can remain the empowered creator.

How did you build your audience on social media?

There is about 100 or so people on my social media who are, and have been actively watching me for the past few years. For the longest time, this really seemed to bother me. I would seethe in frustration, “why can’t I get more followers! I know my message is meant to help so many more people!”

Through my journey of getting sober from marijuana, there has been a massive shift in my mindset around social media. Before, I was posting to ‘get something’, more followers, or clients who I wanted to coach.

However, on day one of getting sober, I decided that I was no longer sharing to ‘get something’ but rather to GIVE SOMETHING. To give my authentic, real, fully truthful self. I hid behind my addiction for 14 years, keeping it a secret from nearly everyone. Taking off that mask was so liberating, I no longer cared about holding an image of having it all together. A deeper part of me knew that the world needed the truth, and in order to heal, I needed to be truthful.

It has been roughly 60 days since showing up online consistently, without a mask. My followers, and my engagement is much more active than it was before. However, now the 100 people who are watching me, is GOOD enough. To be honest, it is more than enough. I know that if I can show 100 people what is possible, those 100 people each have their own circle that they will influence, and those people will then influence their circle, and all the sudden, 100 people turns into 1,000 people. And the ripple effect is good enough for me now.

Contact Info:

• Instagram: @alora_heals
• Facebook: Alora Beck

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