We were lucky to catch up with Carolyn Lanier Roberts recently and have shared our conversation below.

Hi Carolyn Lanier, thanks for joining us today. Let’s talk legacy – what sort of legacy do you hope to build?

My highest intention for my legacy as “A Re-Awakener of The Conversation of The Heart” is that The Sacred Heart and it’s full conversation with The Sacred Mind, the Voice of the Soul, is brought into the mainstream and fundamentally changes every societial system and practice by bringing forward not only the significance, but the necessity of the virtues, focuses and intents of compassion, integrity, reverence and respect as the undeniable cornerstone for Every action, creation and desire of every soul, business, goverment, school, church, bank, hospital and all places in humanity imposes its will upon it’s people and our Earth.

As always, we appreciate you sharing your insights and we’ve got a few more questions for you, but before we get to all of that can you take a minute to introduce yourself and give our readers some of your back background and context?

I stumbled and slowly and developed my skills in what I call “Artistic Photography” in a time in my life where I was healing from the DEEPLY painful and sudden separation of my young daughters, the dissolution of my marriage of 14 years, end of a relationship of 19 years and especially the uncovering and re-discovering of who I was after FULLY loosing my identity in the all encompassing roles of wife and mother in which I was FULLY devoted Completely to the point of not knowing Who I was including forgetting my Bachelor of Social Work degree and 12 years Administrative Assistant and office experience.

I have always connected with ideas, concepts and perceptions that are not of the norm and as an Empath on many levels, I am Very wired for service to our world. I truly have always seen every Soul in their Highest Light until or unless I have cause not to. I remember being around 12 years old it was after school and I was sitting on my bed holding my hands on heart praying and sending love to everyone just because I felt the Call to do this in that moment. I was born with the “ability” or focus to offer every soul a focus of purity which is a place where “All Stories of” can be suspended and where healing can happen because it is a place of peace, IF they choose and especially, Allow, until or and unless the other soul or experiencer falls back into old patterns especially of negative thought patterns and belief systems. Still this IS the Only way real change happens, by breaking a thought pattern or changing an unsupportive belief system.

I utilize this natural focus of purity as a Spiritual Teacher in my Spiritual Counseling, Energy Healing and my Artistic photography. My mission for our world is to be as A Re-Awakener of The Conversation of The Heart which is the balanced flow between The Sacred Mind and The Sacred Heart as we Receive it in our body vehicles, the Voice of The Soul. My purpose is the Em-Power every resonating soul with their own unique voice and truth as Children of God, Divine Beings, or Sparks of Creation or ANY other interpretation that addresses the community humanity. My Mission-Business is called “Allowing The Light” because Nothing happens until you first Allow, and I am assessible on Instagram and Facebook (FB) under the same name and also on FB under my name “Carolyn Lanier Roberts”.

My natural focus of Purity allows me to hold and connect with very pure in my images of “The Mother” (Earth) which I see All of “The Mother” as Unconditional Love and the Only way to truly perceive and receive HER is from an Open Heart. The phrase “My Blessing Pics” includes the complete words married to their particular image and the final stage will be in book form, several books for service toour world . Currently, I offer My Blessing Pics as blank cards with the image only and some hand written words on the back of the card available at my etsy.com store: Allowingthelight and roughly about 1x a month at The New Braunfels Farmers Market, in New Braunfels, Tx and lastly they are available in store “Perfect Love. Perfect Trust” located in the Wonderland of Americas mall in San Antonio, TX.

My hope is that any one of my over 100 Blessing pics is found as Beautiful by the perceiver/receiver/experiencer and because “Beauty” or “The Experience of Beauty” is an experience of being brought into the present moment which is all truly exist, Right Now. Beauty is a very high frequency of healing that transcends ANY external condition(s) of the experiencer and as it brings you into the present moment for however long you are brought into present you are Not then living in any of our, I again repeat myself, “stories” of self because We are SO Much MORE and from this place, Suspended in and by Beauty, ALL Healing can happen.

Is there mission driving your creative journey?

Yes, My Mission is to Re-Awaken The Conversation of The Heart which is the Balanced Flow between The Sacred Mind and The Sacred Heart, the voice of the Soul. Why does Re-Awakening My Heart make ANY Difference and What Does that REALLY Mean?
For My Path, I am Given WITHIN (Where All Creation Starts) that Your Level of Consciousness which is Your ability to have Awareness and Knowledge of what is UNSEEN in Your World given to each of US by our Intuition, Gut Feeling, Inner Knowing, Inner Feeling or other connections We ALL Have with what is VERY REAL, But UNSEEN, That THIS ABILITY  is a DIRECT Result of the State of Your Heart. This Reflects Your Ability to Not Only Trust God, but Trust YOU and have COMPLETE FAITH in The Same Flow…God = You, You = God As A Child of God and The Universe that YOU ARE❤

You ARE a Creator Being in Your Own Personal Reality. We each live individual realities based on MANY factors only One of which is we each have individual experiences which we each process VERY Differently. As a Creator Being or Child of God, Your ability to have DIRECT and CONSCIOUS INFLUENCE in Your World is Directly Connected to Your ability to have and hold an OPEN HEART which then is followed by
Open and Expansive Thoughts. Just like a closed, at different degrees, heart means you then have fearful, constrictive thoughts that keep you in a “Contained” space…Aka…A Treadmill and FIXED Way of Being in Your World with Fixed Unsupportive Patterns of Being and Belief Systems which will NEVER LEAD YOU TO JOY OR TRUST because The Heart does not Exist in ANY Fixed Space…It is COMPLETELY FREE FLOWING.

Let’s talk about resilience next – do you have a story you can share with us?

When my divorce happened in 2013, I did not have or want custody of our young daughters because I had inflicted abuse on my oldest and I did not feel like I deserved this nor could I handle it at the time. The abuse happened about 2 years earlier at a time when my then husband was Suddenly, with only 9 DAYS NOTICE! deployed to Afghanistan with a unit that was based out of a small town in another state, so the Army (F.amily R.eadiness G.roup – FRG) was essentially only available via a very ”clickish” Facebook group…quite minimal support. Ultimately, I felt VERY ALONE and I became OVERWHELMED being a newly acting single parent of a VERY active 2 year old and a 6 year old when I had always had a backup before. By the time it was bedtime, I was barely able to hold myself together because of EXHAUSTION and WAY BEYOND MY LIMITS even from this state, until I was OVER THE EDGE. This was the ONLY time my time my oldest was ever abused…hit by me until about 6 months later when Finally listened to my gut and put my non-napping, hyperactive 2 year old in daycare. I wish could have done things differently and not pushed myself SO HARD to be “The Perfect Mother”…A MYTH. If I had my daughters now I would just hold them and hold them. I pray one day my oldest will forgive me and that there will be peace again….Understandably, their Dad got Full Custody at the time of the divorce and I went into a place within myself of penance for years.

Due to a med-clause stipulation in my divorce decree, that was only accurate at the very end of my marriage and that was present because of my nervous breakdown which I had at the end of the marriage and which put me in a VERY mentally Absent State, I agreed to this condition. Additionally, there was a stringent visitation policy in which I was repeatedly told by my Ex husband, if we broke it, our girls would go into Foster care, I NEVER got to my girls which was BOTH of our faults. His for not being honest and mine for choosing not to stand in my power and FIND The solution for removing the unnecessary med-clause after taking the step I took of being tested at a state facility for Any psychological need and so need for meds. The outcome was “You are not part of the system” which I already knew. I still haven’t had a proper visitation 8 years later and I only found out more recently that what he said about visitation and Foster care was a lie. We got into a battle of wills and I would have NEVER even considered he was lying until the last 2 years. Affording an attorney has been impossible financially and non-profits don’t want to deal with my case because its too complicated.
Ultimately, to STILL have Hope and after repeatedly breaking down over and over and over because of DEEPLY missing my daughters that I raised for 9 years, but STILL continuing to choose to push against these conditions. I would cry and cry…and cry…after awhile I numbed myself because the OVERWHELM was TOO MUCH and when I would break me open again because of something like seeing children playing on a playground and wonder how my girls were, I would start crying again and then numb myself repeatedly. This cycle of Self Denial which Significantly effected my relationship with my Daughters, went on for Years, until FINALLY I began to figure out that I HAD TO NOT GO NUMB. This was NOT EASY, but to make changes necessary Within Me, I HAD to. I slowly faced the EXTREME PAIN…you can only cry so much until you just DONT, but not from Numbing myself, instead from doing My Inner Work on Me which changes/changed EVERYTHING.
Now, I am a Completely different person who chooses to greet each moment with an Open Heart walking in Gratitude and I have FULLY Surrendered because I know ultimately what is supposed to happen in Divine Timing, WILL happen and my stressing about it serves Nothing. I speak to my daughters via phone afew times a week and know when the time is right, I will See them and justice for Them will be in place. All as they choose, We will All heal. After choosing to living in Misery off and on for years and now choosing peace and gratitude after SO MUCH PAIN I know I am definitely resilient.

Contact Info:

• Website: old website – thecareandfeedingof.wordpress.com
• Instagram: allowing_the_light
• Facebook: 2 pages – Carolyn Lanier Roberts; Allowing The Light
• Linkedin: Allowing The Light
• Youtube: Carolyn Lanier Roberts – 2 profiles of same name, but one has about 12 videos
• Yelp: Allowing The Light
• Other: www.etsy.com/shop/Allowingthelight

Image Credits
Each of these are one of My Blessing Pics.